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Jan. 30th, 2007

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I was looking for Pride events in the NE area, and google nor wikipedia turned up any current results.

I was wondering if anyone here, might be able to tell me of any events they have heard of coming up or could send me a link to a Current upcoming event website for New England events... or something...

I dunno, but my search continues.

Loves and Thankies
-Kylie

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Calling my name
into a burning flame

a glow of yellow
a dash of green
blue so hot
it could melt a heart

tell me goddess
will it help me to be seen?

I knew the answer with solidity once
now it seems like faith

belief in my self has faltered
but not in who I am

.... I'm tired...
Just writing for writings sake, and I lost the rest in some sort of brain malfunction. but it started out good... I think...

blah

Jan. 26th, 2007

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Wow...kinda a wierd day.
incredibly long story today. you might want to grab a drink and a snack.

so yeah... lets see.
I left my house today around 1pm:
I went out to buy a book with a giftcard I'd had. and it wad frrrreeeezzzzin out! I was out for about an hour listening to my fm tuner on the discman when I hear, "and theres an issue out for a frostbite warning" and something about not being out for more than a half hour... and so I head home.

Timi calls: Long conversations about the feet of Trent (he's still sexy even if he has "troll feet"), Physiology, classes (Timi's, not mine!), and a whole range of fun stuff... and as usual, we generally giggle and laugh a lot through out our typical talks. :D
then alas, my mother asks me if I would like to go out to eat with her, and Timi and I bid each other. and I have dinner with mum!

my Step-grany, Faye, fell coming outside into the cold weather.
I was warming up my mums car after we had finished eating, and as I watched from car she fell down and broke her hip. I ran over to her in panic and then just thought "she's old and cold! Sh*T! what do I do!?!?" then quickly got into my first aid fundamentals, peeked my head inside and asked someone to call 911. and went right back to her with my coat.
I really never liked the poor old lady. but I did exactly what I do best: I care for people wether I like them or not. and it reminded me of one of the many reasons I had started nursing school when I did.... but thats a topic of a future post.
back to the Rescue!
so yeah. EMTs took forever and she is a southern lady, so the cold weather is doing her no good. I got a few people to lend me thier coats and keep her warm. when the ambulance arrives I get my step-dad on the phone tell him whats happened and he calmly says "I'll be right there".
My mum hands tells me to drive her car home (shhh!!!! *whispes* I have no liscence!). I get home and about ten minutes later, I look outside. there a flashlight, flashing along the house and my nieghbor isn't home. so I flip the lights on, and run outside and ask who is there. I get flashed in the face with the light and an officer Identifies himself and asks who I am. "the nieghbor, Kylie A****". we comunicate whats going on. the alarm apperantly had gone off. and I seeing the lights was making sure everything is ok.

I took a long hot shower. my mum calls and is stuck out at the hospital with my steps- for the night.and I am beat.

Bedtime. sleepy, sleepy.

what a wierd day...

Jan. 23rd, 2007

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if I started saying that Life sucks... would you say I'm depressed or tha I'm a pessimist? and just out of curiosity, do you seriously think its niether?

I'm just feeling slightly nurotic today...

Jan. 22nd, 2007

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my brother told me, "I didn't steal your CDs" for the longest time... and then he let me borrow the CDs that he didn't steal to Rip them to my laptop... I got my music back and thats all I ever wanted, so I gave the CDs back to him. and now that issue is squishied!!!!!! YAY!!!

this was one of my favorite songs to Dance in the shower to...

Yes. I dance. in the shower. I sing too, when I can match my voice to something. but mostly I just dance Nakie in the shower. TMI? no? good!
..............
Destroy she Said: by ? (just cuz I got the music back doesn't mean I got the cases with em to label anything properly)

Like a towers' falling down
Like a bomb blast in your town
Like a hostage tied in Chains
I could not forget your name

‘Destroy she said
My love again
The end will come quickly

Don’t try again
to make Amends
You’ll just end up sinking

If you explode
An aftermath
I think you’ve been dreaming

Destroy she said
my love again
It’s not worth keeping….

‘Destroy she said
My love again
The end will come quickly

Don’t try again
to make Amends
You’ll just end up sinking

If you explode
An aftermath
I think you’ve been dreaming

Destroy she said
my love again
It’s not worth keeping’

................

on another note: I think I just remembered why I didn't drink soda for a long time... this Orangee soda is making me piddle like every 15 minutes, no joke. >.<


Kylie

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who love orange soda? Kylie LOVES Orangee Soda!!! muah ha ha!! I do. I do. I do-ooh!!!

"we serve coke, diet coke, woot beer, spite and ah... Orangee soda!" *giggles.rediculously* if you only knew....

seriously her? serious freshness, thats who!

Thinking back upon FIRST Event, I remember something that someone said during the group with Ms. Becker... it was a question from one of the Parents about wether we dress more for ourselves or for others (as trans people). and I didn't answer in the group, because it was something I felt I had to think about before anwering.
well, since I'm not there at the group now, you all, my lovely Journal fans, get to listen to my answer...
I feel that I dress in my own way (you remember, the "very effemintate Tom-boyish" look I posted about like 4 days ago?) not just because I feel more comfortable that way, but also because I want people to gender me in the way I gender myself. pretty much meaning that I do it equally for both reasons and for niether at the same time... does that make sense?

anyway, my thoughts for the moment...
coming shortly: Trance Lyrics!!
after I checka de out muh frenz page!!!

Kylie
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Jan. 19th, 2007

OK, so I sat around for a few more minutes....

LAYER ONE : THE OUTSIDE

Name: Kylie
Birthday: August 28, 1984
Current Location: my Mummy's desk
Eye Color: hazel
Hair Color: changeable
Zodiac Sign: Virgo / rat


LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE

Your fears: never enjoying freedom, whenever I get to experience it. constant survival instead of living.
Your perfect pizza: Deepdish soft crust, extra Cheese, meat and mushrooms. mmmm...pizza
Goal for future: Keep breathing. transition.

LAYER THREE:

Your thoughts first waking up today: is the baby gate up on the stairs?
Your best physical feature: Smile, when I choose to.
Your bedtime: whenever I can stop thinking for a few hours.
Your most missed memory: I'm not sure... am I s'posed to have one?

LAYER FOUR:
Pepsi or Coke: Diet coke, I prefer diet Sprit or Ginger ale but I f I had to choose, diet coke
McDonald's or Burger King: Neither, Wendy's is where its at!
Adidas or Nike: Nike! it means Victory in Greek
Lipton tea or Nestea: Bigallows or Celestial or Salada only!
Chocolate or vanilla: Sugar? Ha Ha Ha Ha HA!!!! Chocolate with peanut butter. hands down if I'm going to have to shoot insulin for eating massive amounts of sugar.
Cappuccino or coffee: Ice Coffee. Dukin Donuts only.

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Lie: very rarely, but yeah. every human does, and if they say they don't they are lying through their teeth.
Take a shower: sometimes multiple times a day.
Think you're in love: I don't know what love really is. My version of love is something else all its own.
Believe in yourself: I do consciously, unconsciously I don't. nature vs nurture

LAYER SIX: EVER?
Been on stage: once or twice... before I passed out from lack of air.
Eaten Sushi: nope. I can't eat cooked fish without yuking, so I never bothered with raw fish.
Gone skating: I used to play hockey way back in the day.
Dyed your hair: multiple colors

LAYER SEVEN:RANDOM
Gotten beaten up: more then I care to have.
Changed who you were to fit in: not to "fit in". I have however changed myself, or more my behaviour to protect myself from harm. I s'pose wanting to Transition could fall into the catagory of changing to fit in, but I see it more as trying to be myself without fear of being harmed.

LAYER EIGHT: AGE
Are you old?: an old soul in a young body... yeah I'm old.
How old are you?: 22
What grade are you in?: Fuck tards r us? I'm a dropout, GED sped monkey that couldn't even survive 2 semesters of Nursing school...
What did you do for your last birthday: smoked pot. by myself. and then did what I do every year: I write out everything I remember from my dark semi-secret past... I hate my birthday.

LAYER NINE: THE OPPOSITE APPROPRIATE WHATEVER SEX
Best eye color: Green
Best hair color: Don't care.
Clothing style: Don't care.

LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU DOING
1 minute ago: filling this out.
1 hour ago: playing with my nephew
1 year ago: I haven't the foggiest

LAYER ELEVEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE
I love: lonliness
I feel: tired, stressed, angsty.
I hate: people who hurt innocent people.
I hide: everything.
I miss: Raven... I'll never stop missing her.
I need: to stop being such a whiney lil bitch
I want: to live free or die

Stole meme from Z

Jan. 17th, 2007

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ok, so... origanlly I was going to make this a long winded post.
but then, I did it again.
I sat in front of my laptop and Pickerdillied (Timi: I nee d you to accurately translate this word for me someday) around and replied to this, posted to that, checked out some sites of interest... and now I'm left with 16 minutes to get out whatever I feel like saying, now that I can't remember, at this moment, what the heck I was going to be so long winded about.

so yeah, that sums up just about every entry I've made since almost 2 years ago... intended to be well thought out and ends up garbage by the time I get a chance to post it, so nay do I even bother triing.
its the viscious cycle of having a talent to write. you can't just recall it on a whim, it has to come in the moment or else it never ends up the grand piece that it originally was when you thought of it.

moving on ladies and gents, and all the more beautiful feathers of the rainbow that lay inbetween!
my list of things to do before I attend FIRST Event this coming saturday!
1. borrow money from my Mummy, because Kylie forgot to budget ahead of time, yet again.
2. get to DHHS and Apply for Foodstamps, rent assistance, and Medicaid. I've put this off for far too long now. time to kick my lily white arse into gear.
3. I so need to get my paperwork for VECID done. and sent out. I have untill march, but I really need to stop putting things off till the last moment.


4. I need to continue this post when my battery isn't so dead and I'm not too lazy to walk upstairs to get the power cord

maybe by then I'll remember that long winded thought I had... or not...

anyway!
To Be Continued.... I think...

Kylie Sleepy-girl

Jan. 10th, 2007

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stolememe from Wintermoon

comments will be screened unless you tell me I can unscreen them.

1. Can you cook?

2. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?

3. What talent do you wish you had?

4. Favorite place?

5. Favorite vegetable?

6. What was the last book you read?

7. Are you Dirty or Clean?

8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?

9. Worst Habit?


HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...


1. Do we know each other outside of Livejournal?

2. What's your philosophy on life?

3. Negative or Optimistic?

4. What was your dream growing up?

5. Worst thing to ever happen to you?

6. Do you think I'm hot or not?

7. Tell me one weird fact about you:

8. Would you have my back or kick me when I'm down?

9. Do you Trust me?

10. Have you ever kept anything from me?

11. What do you think of me as a Person?

12. Do you think I'm sane or insane?

13. Would you cry for me if I died?

14. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?

15. If you could change anything about me, would you?

16. How do you fall asleep?

17. Would you come over to yell at me or just call?

18. Would you go on a blind date if I set you up?

19. If I only had one day to live would you be honest or lie?

20. A million bucks.. what would you do with it?

21. What is your worst fear?

22. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?

23. How many times did you curse at me while filling out this?

24. Can you sing or dance?

25. In one word, how would you describe me? Be honest....

26. Will you re-post this so I can fill it out?

Dec. 31st, 2006

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Hullo

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