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Feb. 21st, 2008

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I'm lost.... I changed my journal again. anyone who wants my new LJ name insert a comment here. 

and thats it for me. Peace out peeps!

Dec. 19th, 2007

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 well goddess... I'm still here.....

well hullo hullo out there peace fans! whats goin on?

I figured I'd come hang at the library for a few. just picked up Bianca's Present down in the old market ::grins:: (I know your reading this B). so anyways, life been pretty slow. I went out to my first Omaha area club  this last weekend and like wow! way better music then my old haunts at the 313 (don't tell anyone I said that. ssuusshhh!!! ). not really much going on in  my life the days. I'm writing less poetry then ever and for once this doesn't bother me much... maybe because there is almost no drama in my life anymore. no homelessness to whine about... or the fact that I'm not worried about when I'll get the next chance to eat... no fearing that people are going to rape or beat me up or kill me... it almost seems like a dream to me that I might actually be living. the only things I seem to worry much about lately is letting my past issues resurface, in which case they sometimes do get out of hand but I'm also far less panicky in dealing with those issues. moody, yes thanks to the wonderful effects of the horomones, but panicky: nay. I worry about the clothes I'm wearing (and I don't really worry much about that). I worry more about my roomate and my friend Bianca more than I worry about me, but thats becauseI don't have to worry anymore.

I dunno. I guess I can say for once with meaning: life is good. 

I haven't got any gripes... amazing ain't it? ha ha ha!!!!

Keep it real! 
~Kylie Marie

Dec. 10th, 2007

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 And welcome back Kylie to the most missed miracle world of words known as LiveJournal!!!!

Muah ha ha ha ha ha!!!!!

SO.... anyways... where did I leave off last? somewhere in the pits of dispair in a place called pennsylvania. but now I'm in Omaha!
I know. I know.
your thinking something like: How the Fart* did she end up in Omaha!? wait a tick... more importantly whats even in Omaha!?

well let me tell you! I have been on some wild adventures since I last posted back in PA! long story short I got myself into yet another abusive relationship back in PA and then after stuff hit the fan, I got right the heck outta that relationship. ended up in a hospital in Des Moines, IA. and then a little angel named Bianca, lured me here to NE. and its been one hell of a 180 on my life. 
who knew I'd find everything I needed in life (including Horomones !*>.<*! YAY!!!!) in Nebraska of all places? well I did! And my life is getting better I think. 

out of time for today. but will be back soon, so don't touch that Dial! over and out like a light.

Aug. 10th, 2007

Writer's Block: Ewww

What is one food that you refuse to try? Why?
Clams. I have a mild allergy to all seafood, but I think it looks so disgusting anyway!

Jul. 19th, 2007

Writer's Block: By Any Other Name

If you could rename yourself in real life, what would you choose, and why?

Kylie Marie

Kylie being the feminine form of Kyle because that is the gender I Identify as.
and Marie because it was my Memeres name and I wanted to keep something traditional of family for goddess knows what reasons.

Jul. 17th, 2007

location location location

so I have been back in total boy-mode forr the last 6 days. I hate it, but it is time to survive. I am holed up in PA after walking for the last 5 days. I dunno what I'm gonna do about food and medicine but I know I'll figure it out. 

my life hit citical mass yet again and I'm not too sure how much more I can handle. its like total numbness to me.  it is numbness. my tears are there welling beneath my eyes and I'm getting random panic attacks all the time. its been worse then ever... I'm alive though and breathing and triing my damnedest to make it. I'm heading west after I get some money situated here. not sure why other then I have not seen the west coast and nothingness has crept up on me back here in the east. 

I don't know where I'm goin and I don't know why but I'm listening to my heart before I die and goodbye... and I hate to say it but truth is what I am good at for better or worse. and the truth is Idon't have a snowballs chance in hell on my own, yet I have no one to help me back up... and I'm not so sure I want to be helped. I want to give up and just let the world wash over and away, but I can't. the insticnt to survive is too great....

Jun. 29th, 2007

Writer's Block: Summer Break

How did you spend summers when you were a kid?

I spent summers as a kid in the woods and on the lake of Essex county Vermont... I miss those days so terribly

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life is completely fucked.... I hate life right now, can't you t`ell by my bitter sarcasm... oh wait I'm being blunt, not sarcastic. L I F E F U C K I N G S U C K S ! ! ! can I be anymore Blunt?

Feb. 27th, 2007

so I'm not just self destructive but also destructive as I'll be remembered?

angels_wings22 learned how to make people explode using only the mind.
... afterward, angels_wings22 became an ideal and disappeared.
'How will you be remembered in history books?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Feb. 7th, 2007

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I am quite depressed. I haven't much to say today.

Hi out there to Timi who lifted me for a while with a jubeliant talk today. and thank you.

now to the order of buisness to this post today. I have backposted a couple entries from this weekend that my lazy butt never got around to. so if you feel the urge to delve into them, they are posted.


and since I am expecting a couple of new freinds to be added (you know who you are) this entry is public, 

my other entries are friends only, so sorry ladies but ya'll will have to wait till I add you two before you can read them.
 Kylie

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